It was the perfect day to decide exactly how I was going to get my life together!
I was going to:
- Schedule my workouts
- Meal prep
- Start waking up early
- Do my skincare routine NIGHTLY
- Block schedule the hell out of my calendar
STARTING TOMORROW MORNING!
(This is very important. None of this could start today or right now. No. That wouldn’t be perfect enough. It needed to start first thing Monday morning.)
I imagined I would gently awaken, arms outstretched, in my fluffy white bed to the glow of the morning light seeping through my window.
I would have a clean, empty white desk.
My fridge would be neatly organized with rows of salads & pre-chopped veggies in glass containers and sparkling water. (It was also white, somehow. Just go with me here.)
Sound familiar?
Yeah, the vision in my head of what “getting my life together” looked like just so happened to look EXACTLY like the IG posts of lifestyle influencers & girl bosses.
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Turns out, that’s the tell-tale sign of perfectionism.
I got the dopamine hit from planning and fantasizing about this PERFECT life I would have if… every single thing about my life and what I did was different.
But when it came to the execution, that was WAY less dopamine. It was too messy. Imperfect. Hard. Therefore, it couldn’t possibly get me to the perfect fantasy vision!
So at the first bump in the road, I would abandon the plan, because it was already ruined.
(Wanna take a guess at when that first bump inevitably ALWAYS hit?
If you guessed, “Waking up early,” DING DING DING, you’re a winner!)
I would end up spending INFINITELY more time planning & fantasizing about exercising (perfectly) than I did ACTUALLY exercising (in any capacity).
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If this sounds a little *too* familiar and you’d like help getting out of this perfectionist fantasy loop of feeling great THINKING about exercising, then feeling bad about NOT actually doing it, I can help. (That’s what I do in 1:1 Intuitive Fitness Coaching.)
TTYL,
☮💜Deanna
